Nick is home.

My brother Nick just got back from his trip to Vienna.  I really missed him while he was out.  It's odd in that I forget about how important it is to me that he is around.  I also am having a hard time getting over the fact that he is his own person now. I have been slowly getting used to him moving on with his life but it's scary because he decidedly does not need me.  If anything I need him and that is not something that I am used to.  I think that it's hard for me to not be needed and if there is anything that I fear it is someone not needing me anymore and moving on.  Not in a malicious sense but in the fact that I am a rather poor companion.  I don't know how to articulate that except that I was watching Doctor Who and I felt like I have a tendency to be the odd one out when I am feeling like I am not needed.  Today's episode had The Doctor and his companion Amy Pond going on an adventure.  The twist for this story was that the doctor brought along Amy's boyfriend along for the adventure.  It was sad because I saw some of myself in there.  The boyfriend was an amazing and perceptive guy but he was not comfortable with the new role that he was in.  It was hard for him.  I shouldn't have been moved by that or identified with it I should have identified with the suave and charming Doctor but I rarely do.  It's an odd world.  When Nick got back we talked and we may be going to see the John Butler Trio again.  That would be amazing but if it's not in the cards we will have this weekend together and we will be able to catch up before he goes away again.